To stare and smile at the one you love,

Could sometimes be forbidden to other people.

someday…

I’ll make my own wedding picture better than this.

Kanina, habang nagklaklase sa pinaka-boring kong propesor, nagsisimula nakong antukin. Tumutungo ako kunyari sabay pipikit sandali, ibebend yung katawan na parang may pinupulot sa sahig habang nakaupo at pipikit sandali o kaya magpaalam na magccr pero ang totoo ko naman talagang gagawin e lalabas ng classroom para pumunta sa isang upang umupo at matulog kahit 5 minuto lang. Kaso sa lahat ng ginawa ko, inaantok pa rin ako. Hanggang sa wakas, reporting na. Uupo na yung prof namin sa bandang likuran ng classroom. Pumosisyon nako na kunyari e nakikinid sa nagrereport sa harap pero ang totoo e nakapikit nako.

Ang masama nga lang na nangyari kanina e pinagtatawanan na pala ako ng mga kaklase ko kasi nakanganga nako. Kulang nalang tumulo laway ko.

Tapos nung film and literature na, manonood lang ng Excalibur na movie. Ayun, tulog nanaman ako na sumakit pa likod at kamay ko dahil naipit ata ugat ko.

Paguwi ko, mga alas tres ng hapon, kumain nako ng lunch tapos humiga sandali para magpahinga. Maya maya alas siete y medya na pala ng gabi. Nakatulog nanaman ako.

Oo, masarap talaga matulog. Lalo na kapag pagod at puyat ka.

Pero kapag katabi ko na siya, mas masarap maging gising. Sabi nga nila, kapag inlababo ka nga daw, mas maganda na ang realidad kesa sa panaginip.

I woke up at 4 am for a 7 am class. The lessons were boring as hell but have to study hard. Reaching the right grades is not easy. Even if youve been giving effort to it. Or are we? hahaha Have to catch up with these readings and if we dont, we’ll be drowned by it.

This time, it’s much more fun to study. My hopes are all set up high and I’m more boost to do things that needs to be done. I never thought how one person could change my view in life and make it entirely better.

A while ago, in my creative writing class, a weird thing is happening. We were having a workshop and I was the panelist of my 2 classmates on their non-fiction stories. When it was my turn to do the critic, she (my prof) kept on saying praises like “very good” or “good point” and even uses my ideas as good examples for her own. I dont know if she is being nice to me or what but it really seemed weird.

Another thing is that my dysmenorrhea was up again. I was afraid to eat many for I might be in the cr in no time since my stomach is going berserk (to which they say is the cause of hormones), But boy, was the pain in my abdomen sucks. No matter what I do, it still hurts. Even if my classmate gave me a pain reliever, it only worked for 2 hours then the pain was back again. I was able to react with my friends properly whenever they throw jokes.

But what’s good is that I won P20 against a classmate. There’s this rule that we must not tease each other until tomorrow or else, with every wrong move done costs P20. Well what can i say, I won first.

But no matter how busy I am or no matter what I do,  I still miss him. I just can’t wait to see my Sunshine again.

our professor really fucked us up…

we werent able to meet..

he said sorry but i acted immaturely..

my friend and his gf is having their fight again..

im forced to judge for linggo ng wika having my enemies as companions..

my brother is ranting against me again..

the weather made a f*cking joke..

my pms is really getting on my nerves that im so sorry if other people would have to be involve..

and taxation exam tomorrow at 8 am.

but i miss him so much.. i was really looking forward to hugging him tight again. but i acted like a brat. i hope tomorrow he’ll start talking to me again.

I love him so much… and this guilt is killing me.

Worse? My big sis is rubbing it on me.

It was again a time I proved that I was so lucky to have him as my boyfriend..

Unlike other men, he always gives me what I need even if I dont say it. He gives me the freedom to do what I want. He pleases me in things I never thought possible and he never once fail to do so. His patience with me is remarkable no matter how childish I am.

These are only a few reasons why and I dont think I have to mention the rest. Why would I announce it anyway? Someone might become envious and take him away from me.

Jake.. thank you for appreciating everything I do and return them in hundredfolds. I’ve never trusted anyone so much but you and you never failed me. Im sorry if there are times I make you worry or test your patience. I never intend to do so and I always understand why you act that way. That’s why I would always feel guilty afterwards and be like a pathetic crybaby in the end.

The truth is, that shirt isnt still finished. There’s supposed to be a caption at the back that says “(You didnt saw me.)” but I wasnt able to sew it up because I so suck at it. It took me a week just to get it done (not to mention the wasted threads and punctured fingers) and make it at least decent (to which i dont know if i was successful to do so). Anyway, i hope you do like it. I want to see you wear it. Its my first time to sew for someone and your thank you was very rewarding.

If the result of everything I do for you is this satisfying, what more if time comes that I could cook?

Or better yet, finally be your wife?

I remember the sweet licks you give upon my lips.

I hugged my pillow as I looked out the window and watch the gentle rain fall upon the roofs and trees,

I remember smoothness of your skin when I trace it with my fingers.

After I ate strawberries drowned from milk,I hugged my pillow as I looked out the window and watch the gentle rain fall upon the roofs and trees,

I remember how you make that devilish smile when I rub my body unto yours.

While still hungry for something delicious even after I ate strawberries drowned from milk, I hugged my pillow as I look out the window and watch the gentle rain fall upon the roofs and trees,

I remember the sensation when I feel how warm your tongue is.

Imagining us in bed while still hungry for something delicious even after I ate strawberries drowned from milk, I hugged my pillow as I look out the window and watch the gentle rain fall upon the roofs and trees,

I cant help but smile when I remember the vow you gave me.

Someday, while I’m in a sitting position, I’ll ask you tie my shoelace so that when you kneel down and do it, I could raise your chin with my hand and kiss you on your lips when you least expect it..

and i fell in love.

I was really afraid to tell you how my heart longs for you.

But you told me that you love me. That gave me the boost to confess what I feel for you.

Now there’s us.

I’ve been happy ever since.

Its just now that I realize the more time we have, the more you become comfortable with me. Other people would consider it as a change but I didnt. Everytime you ask me if I would be ashamed that youre my boyfriend is really out of the question.

Come to think of it, you are comfortable with me.

Yesterday, while we were with your orgmates, and you being the president, acting that sweet to me in front of them like we were the only couple in that place. You sitting beside me, kissing me every chance you got..

haaaayyy…

Another memory to be lasted forever.

Daydreaming has just become sweeter. I cant wait to hug you again.

A vow has just been made.

For real.